I’m going through a weird phase, podcast-wise. Podcast-listening-wise, to be specific. It’s one that comes and goes, and is rather annoying while it’s in progress.
I currently don’t want to listen to my own podcasts.
Under normal circumstances, I try to listen to most every podcast I do.* I think it’s a valuable step towards improving–both as a producer/editor and as an on-mic panelist/host. Sometimes it’s a little uncomfortable to hear myself at places where I stumble, but for the most part, I enjoy listening. I even sometimes feel proud of my contributions. And that pride comes more and more often now that I’ve been podcasting for years.
Not so, these last couple weeks. I find myself bumping shows with lots of me down the playlist repeatedly. I still listen to eps of The Incomparable or Game Show when there are large panels, but my desire to listen to an episode has an inverse ratio to how Erika-heavy it is. Lazy Doctor Who is currently excruciating.
I’m honestly not sure why that is. I just get itchy inside when I hear myself talk–nervous and anxious in a way I certainly wasn’t when I recorded the episodes. Luckily, this has happened before, and I’m sure it’ll pass eventually. It’s just a weird thing that I thought I’d observe here.
Please note that I’m emphatically not posting this as a way of fishing for compliments. (Seriously, please don’t.) Cerebrally, I still think I’m good at what I do, so I’m not looking for reassurance. I just figured that if other people feel this way from time to time, it might be nice to know they’re not alone.
*This may be changing soon. My time to listen to ‘casts has dwindled dramatically. I’m considering a transition to something more like spot-checking my own appearances so that I can still listen to other people’s podcasts!
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I totally understand. As creative people, sometimes it’s difficult to enjoy our work and sometimes it’s the most annoying thing ever, especially when you vent frustrations and people automatically feel the urge to encourage you even more (like them saying how great your thing was and how awesome you are) which drives me even more into the abyss of being annoyed at my own stuff. It’s good to hear other people feel the same!
When I’ve done radio segments and podcasts, I never listen to them afterwards. Granted, I’m just a participant, not a producer or engineer, but I have zero interest in listening to myself.